I did not sleep much last night in very much the same way I did not one year ago. Unknowingly I sent her my last text message ever and then had nightmares that her non response was because I had lost her. I woke up to the reality that I was now going to live that nightmare. While I was checking on Willow to make sure she was safe she was fighting for her life pinned between a Semi and a concrete wall because a selfish drunk girl had hit her head on at 87 mph while going the wrong way on the expressway. Willow never had a chance. My head was spinning, I could barely stand and my heart was beating out of my chest. It wasn't real and I couldn't make it make sense. I sat at my piano (because that's the place I escape the world) and fell apart. I didn't get to say goodbye. I was never going to see her again. Never again could I touch her. Smell her skin. Kiss her face. Hear her voice. No more arguments. No more make ups. We talked, texted, Facetimed, Snapped or saw each other everyday since the day we met. I really don't think we missed one. It was only 6 months but I’ll never be the same. We each had our separate lives. We were years and miles apart but no matter what we couldn't stay away. I don't know what we would've become but now I’ll never know. My life has forever changed. As I sat there I found myself playing the same chord progression over and over. It turned into the most hauntingly beautiful thing Ive ever written. My heartbeat became the tempo. My longings became the lyrics. Her beauty became the melody. The writing, recording and production became my therapy. It has since taken on a life of its own. The song is called Willow and will be fully released worldwide on April 28th with the blessing of her family. Its my way to share her with the world as I saw her and what she meant to me. She had an amazing effect on everyone she met and we all have our own memories. These are mine. I will forever miss the way she looked at me and would trade anything to get that feeling again. My life is better because she was in it. Even for that short time. God bless the Yon family. They are wonderful people who have generously welcomed me in and I hope I can help them find peace in the same way they are helping me. I miss you everyday Willow and I will always love you. Please watch over me.